|hey remember that time when i only smoked parliments
||[Feb. 3rd, 2008|01:57 am]
this is one of those moments that i must remember.
im feeling so fucking raw and like..rwar.
ready for good mother fucking change.
ready to check my god damn head.
reconnect with old parts of my life.
i am manic, yet inspired, crazy party mode yet needing to not be.
crushing on dreamboats when i need to be focusing on WHAT IS ME.
WHO IS ME.
god damn sometimes im too fucking intense even for myself.
today i sat in my new apartment in my fabulous blue room and wore red stripes and big white sunglasses and smoked and cried and smoked and cried.
then i admitted to myself that i think i might be a hipster and then found out later that utne reader just voted the bywater the hippest neighborhood in the us.
thats so fucking funny.
we are authentically cool.
this needs to get better.
i need control. or im going to have to like shave my head.
STABILITY! COME IN PLEASE!